It's my life I should be able to live it

Well I thought it was time for an update... I had my post partum appt on Thurs and it went well besides I had to reschedule my pap...Joy lol... The docs said I have post partum depression and put me on zoloft... and honestly I feel completely different after taking it, the overwhelming feeling is gone when something happens I am able to stay calm and not panic... It's nice and I m not ashamed of the fact either.

Baby girl is doing good she walks  pretty much everywhere now she is a mess lol Shes getting her first molars in on both sides of her bottom jaw which makes her super grumpy but all in all she is taking it like a g. I can deffinately tell that she misses her daddy but she gets to see him and talk to him almost every day. I am so thankful for technology and I hope that they continue to have such good access to internet and such although I know I shouldnt get spoiled to it cause every deployment wont be like this unfortunately...

Little man has started sleeping some better. he goes to sleep at 9 and sleeps til  1 or 2  then he  eats and goes back to sleep until 5 or  so and then he wants to eat then be held so that is normally when he ends up laying beside me (yes I know the dangers of co sleeping so please don't judge) We finally found a formula that seems to work for him... It is Enfamil Nutramigen...The powder form. He is my  chunky monkey he already seems bigger than his sister was he isn't fat but I think he has a larger bone structure like me.

Im so blessed to have 2 beautiful children and a wonderful husband and father to them. My life is no where near perfect but it is perfect to me and  in this crazy messed u world I've finally found the spot I am suppose to be at and can honestly say if someone doesnt like me for me   or has a problem with the way I live my life they can go the hell on because Im not changing Im perfectly content with the one or   two friends I do have because they are true friends I dont need the fakeness or the drama in my life any more.

Until next time. See ya

Well we are still alive

Day... Way too many since my husband left and we are all still breathing thats the good news... Its a day to day struggle some being worse than others but each day that passes is another day closer to him being home (thank god)


Little man is doing good he is 5 weeks old and he is starting to sleep better which is helping me not feel as overwhelmed... He looks and acts so much like his daddy and for a 5 week old man does he have some attitude!

Baby girl is 13 months and walking every where I swear I can't keep up with her not to mention she repeats anything anyone says... which isnt always good if you know some of the people she over hears... Shes so smart for her age

Im so proud of both my babies they never cease to amaze me now if only this year was over with and their daddy was back home watching them grow up with me<3

Its gunna be long and hard... and not in the good way...

Well I can officially say deployments suck but we will get through it compared to all the stuff we've already been through this is gunna be easy... just another bump in the road. I do miss him a lot tho and with a one year old and a three week old there is no denying its tough...

Speaking of a three week old I had our son on May 15th he was 7lbs 7 oz and 20 3/4 an in long my husband was able to be there and it was a great experience and for now we are done with having kids maybe in the future there may be another but not anytime soon.

Well thats it for now :)

Update.

Well I officially suck at blogging. I haven't been on here in forever but I've been busy & its not really like anyone reads my blog anyways this is just a way for me to get everything out and on "paper"...

 So theres quite a bit of good news... I was 3 cm dilated 2 nights ago which means my little man could be here any day now... We are deffinately ready to meet him :) I think he is being just a tad bit stubborn though because I have been trying everything in my power to get him to come and he just isnt having it lol

On to more good news! My husband is preparing for a deployment (I wont post when or to where because of opsec) but lets say very soon... Today he got news that they may be putting him on rear d to stay back and work on the trucks with the civis... This is good news because he will be here to watch his son grow up and he will be safe in general but I can tell he was sort of disappointed because he wanted his combat patch and in general wanted to have the deployment experience as this will/ would have been his first deployment. Nothing is set in stone yet so until they "officially" put him on rear d Im not going to get my hopes up.

Well that is really all I had to update about until next time see ya

Time sure flys...

I can't believe that in just a little over a month our daughter will already be 1 year old, not only that but she will have a little brother as well... And not long after that it will be 2 years since me and my wonderful husband got together, it's ironic that we got together on Independence day because we both freed each other from a lot of things. Through the good and the bad we always came back to each other stronger than ever it took us a few tries but we finally got it right and ever since then life has only gotten better. We have a nice house 2 cars 2 loving kids 2 little mutts.... Everything is just right.

In all honesty I don't know what I would do without him, sure we have our ups and downs we fight we say stupid things but no matter what we always make up and learn a lot from our mistakes. Life didn't give us the easy road there are deffinately hills, kiss ur ass curves, and some big ass potholes. Thank god for 4 wheel drive I guess lol... But in all seriousness he has made me a better person as I hope he feels the same way.

Just had to get that out there it all looks and sounds a lot better in my head but putting it out is just one of the many ways i can actually express how much I love him

Ugh.

Well I've done pretty much nothing today besides the dishes and honestly for once I'm okay with that because my house looks freakin awesome compared to what it did look like. I feel pretty accomplished a coule night ago i scared myself though because i rearranged our living room (yea i know i shouldn't do that at 30 weeks preg but shh) Well later that night I had a few contractions that actually hurt it scared me but they went away so I am going to say it's my body preparing for labor (oh joy) Though seriously I can't wait to hold my son<3

 Been playing with our dogs today because it was so nice out I just had to enjoy it, I just wish that I didn't get exhausted so easily... That is the joy of pregnancy though I can't complain too much a lot of people have a lot rougher pregnancies than I do and for that my heart goes out to them.

So has anyone else had neighbors that they really can't stand like they aren't my next door neighbor but they live close enough to annoy me and I swear if I could smack a hoe without getting in trouble I would! Like this girls husband was out in the field and I saw atleast 2 diffrent guys role up into her house like they lived there I know I shouldn't judge but I don't care if they were friends or not no guy would be coming to see me without my husband home thats just a lil trashy to me but I guess to each their own!

Oh and on a happy note approximately 16 more days til I get my husband back wooooo!!! So excited for that one lol seriously can't wait.... Even though I know he will make a mess in my clean house once he gets here lmao... Ok well I don't have much else to write about so I'm out.

I support my soldier not the war...

I've been thinking about this for a while and well.... I am anti war... I know some people say you can't support troops if you are anti war but you can. See I think the war wasn't needed yes there was 9/11 but have the "leaders" of this country never heard of two wrongs don't make a right? The war was started by men who sit safely in their posh offices and get to go home to their families every night without the fear of gun fire or IEDs... They send our loved ones out into the war zones to fend for their dumb decisions... It irratates me that our president(s) are so inconsiderate, yes I know the war is what the Army is here for but damn if they would do it for the right reasons maybe EVERYONE would be a little more supportive.

On another note I HATE that people have the right to protest military funerals it is not right, but Karma is a bigger bitch then any of us can ever be and as they say what goes around comes around. Treat others the way you want to be treated... So i guess we owe them a favor later on huh? Wonder how they will feel when over half of America comes and protests their loved ones funerals... They probably haven't even thought about that one!

That's it ladies and gents may write more today depends on if anything else interesting pops into my mind