It's my life I should be able to live it

Well I thought it was time for an update... I had my post partum appt on Thurs and it went well besides I had to reschedule my pap...Joy lol... The docs said I have post partum depression and put me on zoloft... and honestly I feel completely different after taking it, the overwhelming feeling is gone when something happens I am able to stay calm and not panic... It's nice and I m not ashamed of the fact either.

Baby girl is doing good she walks  pretty much everywhere now she is a mess lol Shes getting her first molars in on both sides of her bottom jaw which makes her super grumpy but all in all she is taking it like a g. I can deffinately tell that she misses her daddy but she gets to see him and talk to him almost every day. I am so thankful for technology and I hope that they continue to have such good access to internet and such although I know I shouldnt get spoiled to it cause every deployment wont be like this unfortunately...

Little man has started sleeping some better. he goes to sleep at 9 and sleeps til  1 or 2  then he  eats and goes back to sleep until 5 or  so and then he wants to eat then be held so that is normally when he ends up laying beside me (yes I know the dangers of co sleeping so please don't judge) We finally found a formula that seems to work for him... It is Enfamil Nutramigen...The powder form. He is my  chunky monkey he already seems bigger than his sister was he isn't fat but I think he has a larger bone structure like me.

Im so blessed to have 2 beautiful children and a wonderful husband and father to them. My life is no where near perfect but it is perfect to me and  in this crazy messed u world I've finally found the spot I am suppose to be at and can honestly say if someone doesnt like me for me   or has a problem with the way I live my life they can go the hell on because Im not changing Im perfectly content with the one or   two friends I do have because they are true friends I dont need the fakeness or the drama in my life any more.

Until next time. See ya

Well we are still alive

Day... Way too many since my husband left and we are all still breathing thats the good news... Its a day to day struggle some being worse than others but each day that passes is another day closer to him being home (thank god)


Little man is doing good he is 5 weeks old and he is starting to sleep better which is helping me not feel as overwhelmed... He looks and acts so much like his daddy and for a 5 week old man does he have some attitude!

Baby girl is 13 months and walking every where I swear I can't keep up with her not to mention she repeats anything anyone says... which isnt always good if you know some of the people she over hears... Shes so smart for her age

Im so proud of both my babies they never cease to amaze me now if only this year was over with and their daddy was back home watching them grow up with me<3

Its gunna be long and hard... and not in the good way...

Well I can officially say deployments suck but we will get through it compared to all the stuff we've already been through this is gunna be easy... just another bump in the road. I do miss him a lot tho and with a one year old and a three week old there is no denying its tough...

Speaking of a three week old I had our son on May 15th he was 7lbs 7 oz and 20 3/4 an in long my husband was able to be there and it was a great experience and for now we are done with having kids maybe in the future there may be another but not anytime soon.

Well thats it for now :)